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Sylvia’s Children . . . Make that Child

In second grade, we learned that Lincoln’s mother, Nancy Hanks, had died of milk sickness when he was very young.

I grieved for her. She was dead–would have been dead anyway, it being more than 100 years past that original death when I found out. I felt sorry for Abe, with a step-mother and all (being naive and only 7 I didn’t realize that stance might be prejudiced, hadn’t considered that fairy tales give step-moms a bad rap–probably undeserved.) Anyway, I didn’t analyze the feeling: I was sad. I didn’t want Abraham Lincoln’s mother to have died so young.

Later, I learned that in a billion years the sun will explode–and that made me sad as well. A grade school friend (other people have always been smarter about this than I) pointed out that I would be long dead by then. I was pretty good with numbers, I knew a billion was a big number and meant a long, long time. But I was sad for awhile.

Just now I read that Nicholas Hughes, age 47, son of Sylvia Plath and Ted Hughes–the world’s champion survivor–killed himself in Alaska just weeks ago. He and his still living sister Frieda live in my memory as the two dead babies coiled at the dead mother’s breast in one of the Ariel poems. We all grieved for Sylvia and for Anne–Sexton. I grieved as well for John Berryman, whose verse I loved and whose wry spirit sparkled in my mind’s eye. I’m glad I never met him. Rumor has it he came to our college campus once so drunk he puked in the car on the way to the airport.

Get close to the dead and you’re done for.

I never grieved for Robert Lowell–who knows why?

Linda Sexton wrote a lovely reflection on Nicholas and the legacy of suicide. Parents who kill themselves leave an awful wreckage. I don’t have to comment on that; it’s quite well known. Berryman’s father killed himself when John was 10. Nicholas and Frieda lost their’s before they were three. Did they remember her at all?

Maybe Nicholas’ life was a triumph of sorts–he outlived Sylvia by 15 years. His father died some years ago–naturally, so at least his son spared him that terrible grinding guilt of thinking having been convicted by many of driving the mother to death he might, thus, be guilty also of his son’s.

So I’m sad. Sad as I only get over people I’ve never met.

Nicholas, as I learned about your mother–as I learned about Abe Lincoln’s mother–you became to me a tiny, indeterminate presence outside the kitchen on a cold morning in London. And she was vivid, blond, desperate, half psychotic and dead in an open gas stove like the one I grew up with. She had fallen asleep and left a legacy I admired more than any I can think of–not you, but three books of exceptional poetry, vivid, charged with intellect and imagination, and deathless.

So I wondered about you. And wondered. From time to time, knowing nothing until today when I opened the NYT online and found this editorial by Linda Sexton, saying how she has wanted to die by her own hand and wondering whether your sister may be OK. And I guess you were for awhile–a longish while. I trust there was some happiness, some love.

And so here I sit with little tears in my aging, well adjusted, half-decent poet’s eyes. I still miss Nancy Hank and John Berryman, wish they’d gone on–to see their children succeed, to celebrate the way life is supposed to succeed life and descent into death as a kind eventuality, not sought, not speeded up, expected, deferred, deflected and finally, inevitable and accepted. And I wish that for Nicholas, as well, who left his research and colleagues who liked and admired him.

Now he’s dead like Nancy and John, as the sun will be one day. And you and I. No doubt that’s the source of the sadness. At age 7 you can be sad and hopeful both. At 57 it’s harder–the dead seem deader and farther away. Especially those we only know as words.

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Supermarket Sweet

A little cluster of my favorite poetry—even a short story by John Updike—is all about supermarkets. Allen Ginsburg may have started it with his poem about wandering the aisles and finding Walt Whitman. Randall Jarrell followed suit with a wistful and poignant self-portrait of a 1950s woman—forty-ish, probably—ruminating about loss and anonymity. John Updike’s short story “A & P,” comes from the perspective of the bag boy—a chivalrous wannabe in a fluorescent non-wilderness, tilting at the middle class manager instead of a windmill. Peter Meinke, a contemporary Florida poet, picks up there, ruminating that “My supermarket is bigger than your supermarket. / That’s what America is all about.”

Even Melanie (whom no one under forty-five has ever heard of) sings about supermarkets:
“Take the children to school, and you go to the grocery store. You pass as a grown-up . . . “
So even an aging, hippie-style rock singer, sees grocery shopping as the purview of middling: middle class, middle age, mediocrity.

In sum, the supermarket emerges as an icon of America—possibly America at its most generic and boring.

But here’s the thing for me: I love the grocery store. If I were T.S. Eliot, I might write: “At the supermarket, there I feel happy.” For fifty years I’ve passed through the automatic doors to push or help push a chromed metal basket up and down the aisles that prove we are a land of plenty. There are no secret corners in the average grocery store. Light pours from above and exhibits every can and every cellophane package, every freezer case and every squared off cereal box. The tomatoes glow, the peppers shine, the oranges reveal their leather peels. There is a peace that comes in knowing where one’s next meal comes from—and that when that meal ends, more awaits.

For me as for many women, the weekly (or more frequent) trip to the grocery reaffirms something gendered. Of course, sometimes an inner rebel curses the necessity and the obligation. Why should it be a woman thing? And, in fact, these days, it’s not so much. That’s the thing: everyone is there. One sees couples, whole families, young men—sometimes in pairs—prowling through the soda aisles and stacking their pizza boxes, young women searching for vegan ramen or shuttling their toddlers past the Captain Crunch. It’s a watering hole, a gathering place. Though privately owned, it truly belongs to its customers, much more than other retailers where we go from time to time and buy something different every time. At the grocery we buy the same things again and again. We lay claim to our brands and our nutritional profiles.

I regard the local Publix as “mine.” Having shopped there for 25 years, I know every aisle. I notice the gradual shifts in product lines. I’m proud that there are more organics now and the baggers and cashiers seem to appreciate my canvas bags. I nosh my way through the sample carts when it’s lunch time. I help people find the condiments if they ask. Sometimes I make friends with strangers waiting at the deli for lunch meat. The pharmacist recognizes me, and I her. And checking out I always enjoy the cashier’s banter with the bagger, or congratulate myself on my friendliness to the occasional mentally challenged cashier.

It’s all lovely and personal without the stress of real relationship. If I meet a neighbor, it’s a treat, but we don’t have to tarry long or delve into details. We’re busy. The supermarket is an oasis of civility. Being alone in the crowd—usually regarded as a curse—is a blessing here. You’re all in it together, but you’re all going home and won’t have to deal with each other for long.
When I leave with my one hundred dollars of produce, chicken et cetera and packaged groceries, I’ve accomplished something, I’ve socialized, I’ve once more staked out my identity and I’ve proved the world to be still reliably ordinary, even as it offers the danger of new hot peppers, the mystery of persimmons or guava or strange and spindly fungi from far away. The small adventures proffered are optional only, the comfort of familiarity is the mainstay.

And, just think, next week you get to go again.

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Surrender 7208

Morning. It’s always morning, when
I’m reading & writing to prove
I read & write. This time it’s
Ferlinghetti. You can tell
can’t you? And, really, I already wrote

for awhile, in my chair, where the air
barely reaches from the vent, blowing
cool over empty tables & spaces, the fan
spinning casual as a flirtatious Flamenca’s fan.
Finally ineffectual.

Really, I was writing then
about God, as always, because I began
with Ephesians & trying to be the first
on my block to crack the nut of
the shape of time & God’s will

all that—which led me to

surrender. That’s what we do
willy nilly—without will, that is,
though feeling willful. I write.
I read. I eat. I drink the coffee
congratulating my spineless consciousness

that today it has cinnamon. Today I have written.
Today I have read. Today I have followed
myself. Ferlinghetti gives form to my thought
I am an echo. Ferlinghetti thinks about God.
I think because I have read Ferlinghetti

for years—though not constantly—he
was beginning of poetry for me —he
taught me all I knew before
I knew more & another thing or two.
I never knew Ginsberg until Ginsberg was

passé, had passed away— then I noticed
Howl, and Kaddish, then I loved the grocery poem
with Whitman in the aisles. I got it: he was not
some random madman tangling tradition’s web
he was strapped in reaction & I am strapped
in it & him & Ferlinghetti & neither he, nor I,

nor Ferlinghetti can help it—we are spinning
the web from our bellies because
that’s what we do—we practice
or perish, the publishing
public & frog-like takes its own

inevitable course, not predetermined but
inevitable nonetheless
RANDOM INEVITABILITY
that’s what I learned from the sandpiper tracks
of those verses in Coney Island of the Mind
my first favorites. That’s what I want to say

You wake up you read, you write, you eat
you type—or whatever, whatever strikes you even if it feels
forced and routine—you are the routine & the random
offshoot of some other routine.
Even if you’re out of cinnamon

walk out the door—Be surprised
by Ferlinghetti’s girl with the ice cream sprinkles
outside the dry cleaning store

or whatever the great and powerful Oz has in mind for you today.

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Reading Beowulf at Last

Saturday night. At 56 we stay in more and come home earlier. And where I used to consider late nights a sign of adulthood, now I get up early to read and write when my brain is fresh. And that brings me to Beowulf, for that’s what I’ve been reading at 7:00 a.m.

Most students of literature–heck most advanced high school students–read Beowulf under duress early on. It’s the original English literature after all, requisite though hardly popular.

But somehow I avoided it. Over the years I gatherd the gist: a strong warrior, a gruesome monster, a monster’s mother and ultimately death for the hero. With alliterative verse I had experience. I love Gawain and the Green Knight. Still, I had no desire to crack the epic text.

Then, Seaumus Heaney translated it, and I got interested. He’s definitely in my top ten of living poets, maybe all poets, a bard’s voice. Still, I didn’t buy it. Though I buy many books, that one didn’t seem crucial. And several years passed.

A few months ago, browsing at Parker’s books in Sarasota, I found it used and chose it over Pound’s Cantos and some kids’ books I considered for my collection.

It’s a hardback, bi-lingual (perhaps they all are), so across from Heaney’s spare and readable verse are the beautiful and inscrutable verbal relics of a world long gone. Occasionally, I roll them around on my tongue. I’m reading slowly a few pages a morning. Now, Beowulf has resurfaced after his plunge into Grendel’s mother’s den beneath the sea monsters.

I’m struck by the Danish connection. A student of English should know, I’m sure, that Hamlet was not the first prince of that nation to intrigue the neighbors in the British aisles. But I didn’t. And I really had no idea that the English author would use the tale to celebrate their Christianity.

Even more I’m struck by the Tolkien connection. Anyone whose read both the trilogy and Beowulf will know of that. And if, like me, you’ve been seduced by the more recent fantasy saga A Song of Fire and Ice by George R.R. Martin, you’ll see the link there too: the heirloom swords, the long battles, the drinking in the halls.

Beowulf is a simpler tale, but apparently I have not evolved past the pre-civilized ardor of warriors and wenches. In fact, though I could really do without the arms torn from torsos and other details of blood and gore, I’m enthralled the by magic, the noble friendships and the images of strong men on horseback galloping above the sea.

I recommend it–Heaney’s version is cleanly poetic and highly readable–every bit as accessible as Martin. If you, like me, missed the chance to discover where it all began, take this chance. It won’t take long and will enrich your experience of all those more recent entries into the fiction of magic, swords, blood-letting, and honor.

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Erdrich + Setterfield

Reading Diane Setterfield’s The Thirteenth Tale, I feel quite suddenly inspired to comment. I think of Louise Erdrich because Setterfield’s prose shares poetry, though not the same strain of poetic style and inflection, with Erdrich. A writer—perhaps any artist—depends very much on what comes to him or her.

What marbles are in the stone yard? A sculptor may choose among them as a writer may choose to type or to write by hand—paper or screen then printer? But the real stuff the content, the composition, the language itself, these come from within. Often—arguably always—they evolve from some previous writer’s words or images. So, one might say, a writer can control her production by choosing carefully what to take in. Still, the first word to appear in a new session must spring by parthenogenesis to the page. This is the book that came to Setterfield compressed by her brain from influence, education, predilection and experience.

So I can’t criticize Setterfield for writing as she writes and emphasizing what strikes her, in short for not being Erdrich. I wouldn’t be at all surprised to learn that Erdrich is among her influences, but I can’t help but prefer the latter, at least thus far. (I’ve read only 1/3 or this book whereas I’ve delved through Erdrich for 15 years, reading The Beet Queen at least three times and following the protacted saga of Nanapush, Margaret, Lulu, Fleur, Eli, Pauline and so forth as well as the German transplant folk of Argus, though they tend to have only one book to themselves while the clans of the Anishinabe appear and reappear at the centers and the periphery, almost never wholly absent from any book.

They are both fine storytellers, though Setterfield spends way too much time admiring her yarn spinning. One particularly annoying ploy is that she imagines the outlines of stories by a character, outlines that are her own, and then has another character gush over them. It’s almost masturbatory.

It may be unfair of me to judge Setterfield. Still since it’s my blog, I will. She strikes me first off as wise in some ways but too self-important about her wisdom. In The Antelope Wife, Erdrich gives us such rich interplay of the contemporary and quotidian against the marvelous and antique. Ancient wildness lies down by urban Minneapolis (I can’t rembember its Anisinabe name) and from that coupling come the ongoing generations of latterday first peoples. In that book, Erdrich plays with the notion of twins and weaving. At some point, no doubt, she elaborated on the significance to herself. Throughout she returns to a pair of twins weaving what is clearly the tapestry of the tale, the interlocking, mutually influential lives and impulses of the characters, the repeating patterns, the inescapable destinies. Setterfield comes up with the excellent metaphor (quite similar) of a spider’s web. Then, she explains it, showing off her mastery of literary analysis, taking the pleasure of discovery from her reader and elongating a passage, that like many, could have been curtailed with no great loss to plot of sensibility.

In the end, Setterfield’s compulsion to show off her understandings leaves them vulnerable to the reader’s evaluation. For me, they often come up short. I don’t agree about marriage, for instance, at least not with the sweeping generalizations here. I don’t agree about reading, quite. Etc. If she could leave aside the exposition and focus on the tale, which is a good one and not unlike Erdrich in its fabulous ordinariness, the book would be much improved.

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Saturday Shopping

I collect illustrated books, mostly children’s piccture books but also beautifully illustrated editions of Whitman and others. (I own two illustrated versions of Whitmans Leaves of Grass, one with images by Rockwell Kent, the other by Louis Daniels.) Yesterday, I went to Parker’s books in downtown Sarasota. I’d seen a book illustrated by Tony Ross–whose work I love–in the window. First I poked throught the first editions and the literature. In the kids’ books, I found very little to stun me–the things I liked best I already own. I found a couple of things worth owning–a book illustrated by Arnold Lobel–1st edition and some others. Then in the poetry was an early edition of Pound’s Cantos, very tempting but $45.00–and available at libraries. Then I found John Berryman’s Homage to Mistress Bradstreet. I wrote my master’s thesis on Berryman’s Sonnets–still my favorite of all this work, so this Berryman tempted me a lot. Add to that its illustrations by Ben Shahn and the relatively low price, $14.95, I ended up with that. The Alex Ross was also tempting but the images were less than, “Ahhh” quality for me. I left it behind with the Pound and a book I haven’t read by Louise Erdrich–and I’d love to say I own all her works, but that was paperback and, almost certainly, still available from Alibris or other dealers–not to mention new (it wasn’t even 1st trade). So I ended up with Diane Wakoski’s Inside the Blood Factory as well as the Berryman and a hardcover of Seamus Heaney’s Beowulf translation–bilingual and well worth owning (not to  mention that I’ve never read Beowulf in any form). Next time, maybe I’ll spring for the Lobel and the Ross if they haven’t sold yet.

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